Thursday, August 9, 2007

Weakness

I thought as soon as I had Ayden I was going to have motivation to loose weight! I mean really, your body goes through this huge change(from hot to NOT)! No I am kidding but really I don't think we as women took time before we had a baby to realize although we thought we may not have been in optimum shape then, it was way better than now! I mean really, it's not like we have to be pregnant for nine /ten months, have morning sickness, watch our bodies expand, have mood swings, still feel the need to satisfy our husbands, and then GET STRETCHMARKS! I really thought I was going to be like elastagirl and go right back to normal! WRONG! My cravings seem 100 times worse now! I am a chocoholic ( did I mention it tends to give Ayden gas and I still do it!) Bad mommy bad! Well I am just getting him used to it, it doesn't seem to bother him anymore, besides they say broccoli can give a baby gas but nobody ever tells anyone to give up the broccoli. As for the whole body thing, I realize it is going to take time,and that I might actually have to try some disipline, I mean I look at my body and think eww gross! ( I mean nasty, sorry Kristen!) but then i don't do a thing about it! I always say I don't have time, but if I would just take time out from kissing and starring at my beautiful son , I would have all the time in the world!And although my body has gone through some tough changes, I look at my battle wounds and think MAN WAS THAT WORTH IT! and the thing is, I know I will do it again!

4 comments:

Julia said...

Hey Xan! I just found your blog and totally relate to the chocolate cravings thing. I just held a jar of frosting in my hands for about a minute, going back and forth with the angel and devil in my head whether or not I should rip it open and go at it with a spoon. I opted for a piece of gum instead, but I know I could turn to the dark side any second! I hear ya, sister! See you soon!
Julia

Emily said...

That's true, why do people say to give up chocolate but not broccoli? And is it bad that I've already "let myself go" and I'm not even married yet? I like food.

Jessica said...

I didn't know you had a blog! Well I do now, and there's no turning back! I am a chocoholic as well, and ya know what? It's OK!

Julia said...

FYI: I gave in to the frosting last night at 9:35pm. I'm not going to weigh myself for a week and just hope it goes away.