Ok what is it about the Holidays that can bring out the worst in you? I mean this year I really sucked! I couldn't wait for Christmas to be over! I am usually the one who loves Christmas and decorating and getting presents for everyone and all that jazz. But for some reason I have been a Scroogette. IT IS NOW OVER! yeah yeah yeah! Don't get me wrong, Santa was good to me and it has been really fun seeing all of Mark's Family, but I am POOPED! We have been out till like 1 am every night and it has been snowing like crazy here so driving home on icy roads, scary.It takes us 45 min to go 22 miles. Anyway let me get to the point of why Christmas kinda sucked this year.. Ayden poor little Ayden got Croop on Christmas Eve! I am not talkin a little bit of a cough, I am talkin about a sea lion jumping into my sons body and hacking up a cough! The poor kid couldn't get to sleep, I tried the cold air out side( like the DR said) and the steaming shower( like the DR said) and nothing seemed to help. What made the situation worse was the fact that we were at my mother and father in laws house and it was packed with our awesome family, so we slept on an air mattress on the Floor in the Basement. Now this wouldn't have been so bad if the air would stay in and that thing would stay firm, and if my adorable little nephew Nathan didn't have an ear infection and cry from 1-3 AM! So every time Nathan screamed, Ayden woke up, (don't tell Jessica she feels bad already) needless to say we got no sleep. So then I spent all of Christmas being the emotional wreck I am because I got no sleep and I am worrying about my poor little sick child, stressing that I really need to take him to the Dr,yet it is snowing and I am praying he will make it till tomorrow!LUCKILY he did, he made it till the next day and I took him to the DR who then juiced the kid up on steroids( don't worry we didn't work him out so he won't beat up any kids with his super strength) But we will have to confess of his use when he becomes a pro baseball player. Anyways I am DONE being dramatic, everything is fine and I am going to chill out, ( it is very therapeutic to write all of this out)!
Ok I realize I suck at remembering to do this thing but I promise I am going to be better...as if any of you care..if anyone reads this...anyway. So, I suffer from a problem. I suffer from don't touch my son old man, syndrome! No seriously I have been on the brink of being a bad person, but I thought I was improving and then today I proved myself wrong I have become one, I am a Seriously BAD person. I was at the store today buying some sequins for Ayden's stocking.( yes I am attempting a famous stocking)and there was this overwhelming stench of BO( you know Body Odor) and it kept following me around. Now, I know it is not me because I did decide to take a shower today and put on deoderant! So I was pretty confident in myself not smelling.Then I finally realized it when I got to the felt isle. It was the old man. You know, he looked cute in his overalls and little hat but it was the smell that was making me sick...so i tried to get away by asking a women a question.It didn't work, I tried to run to the bead isle, but before I could IT HAPPENED..he spoke. I froze! turning around slowly to answer the cute, nice, smelly old mans question. Five months ...thankyou...yes he is...yes he does...smiling all the while thinking.PLEASE DON"T TOUCH HIM PLEASE! His wife came over to comment and all was well. Until, he did it. he touched him. Luckily to my satisfaction it was only on the toes, well where his toes would be if he didn't have on shoes. So, I was halfway ok. I know it is so rude of me to think the way I am thinking but I can't help it! I love for people I know to hold him. I love for people to play with him and get the chance to get to know him. BUT and this is a BIG BUT, I hate it when random people get all up in his face or TOUCH HIS HANDS! Who knows where their hands have been!? I mean really, they could have just went to the bathroom, or picked their butt or nose. Then they are going to put their finger in my kid's hand where that hand is going to be stuffed into his mouth. Every possible finger that can fit in there, with butt/ nose dropplings of some random stranger. Seriously I know I need to get over it, my hands are really seeing the raw end of the deal with all of the hand sanitizer.And what a hypocrite I am because I love for people to look at him and comment. I guess what i am saying is... you must smell nice and look pretty to touch my son... and this is why I have become a terrible person, I need to love every smelly person.
I thought as soon as I had Ayden I was going to have motivation to loose weight! I mean really, your body goes through this huge change(from hot to NOT)! No I am kidding but really I don't think we as women took time before we had a baby to realize although we thought we may not have been in optimum shape then, it was way better than now! I mean really, it's not like we have to be pregnant for nine /ten months, have morning sickness, watch our bodies expand, have mood swings, still feel the need to satisfy our husbands, and then GET STRETCHMARKS! I really thought I was going to be like elastagirl and go right back to normal! WRONG! My cravings seem 100 times worse now! I am a chocoholic ( did I mention it tends to give Ayden gas and I still do it!) Bad mommy bad! Well I am just getting him used to it, it doesn't seem to bother him anymore, besides they say broccoli can give a baby gas but nobody ever tells anyone to give up the broccoli. As for the whole body thing, I realize it is going to take time,and that I might actually have to try some disipline, I mean I look at my body and think eww gross! ( I mean nasty, sorry Kristen!) but then i don't do a thing about it! I always say I don't have time, but if I would just take time out from kissing and starring at my beautiful son , I would have all the time in the world!And although my body has gone through some tough changes, I look at my battle wounds and think MAN WAS THAT WORTH IT! and the thing is, I know I will do it again!
OK so yes I am a first time mom and I can be a little anal with somethings, Like the fact that I was not going to take my son on the boat until next summer when he is over a year old because he is just too little to be going out on the boat ! So everyone gave me a hard time about how anal and protective I am, because I don't like dirty little kid hands groping all over my son, I always have to be around him( so it seems) and I wouldn't let him go on the boat.Then my mother and father- in-law bought a pontoon boat and though I told Mark NO a ton of times I finally gave in! I don't know if it was the sitting at home while everyone else went out on the lake having a great time,watching HGTV all day even when I am not at my own house, or the fact that I could be loosing up, but I gave in! And boy does my little man love it!He loves to ride around and look at everybody who is on the boat and in just a few short minutes that kid is out! And although I am still right by his side, it is nice to be out in the fresh air, beautiful lake, and not to mention the Adult conversation!